snccharlotte's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- All Over Ya Body I've been thinking about this diary a lot lately and I've come to the conclusion that I should unlock it. Why you may ask, would I do something like that? Plain and simple. I don't want to feel like I have to hide every damn thought and emotion I have. It's almost like I'm sheltering the world from myself, or even holding everything in so that no one can attack me. If I put myself out there, I'm vulnerable. Well, too fucking bad, Amber. Time to stop being so afraid. If people want to say shit let them say shit. For some reason Jim and I haven't really been hanging out with any of our friends lately. On one hand it's kind of lonely because I miss Joey, Michelle, and Tyler. They're fun people. On the other hand, it's sooo nice to just be alone with Jim and know that we can have time to ourselves, without people complaining that we're ignoring them. Maybe on Wednesday we'll go see them. I brought Zelda home for everyone to see. Sarra fell in love with her instantly and wanted to hold her. Bobby and Alex were all over her, petting and wanting to hold her. Frankie was freaked out by the snake, but eventually held her by the end of the night. Oh yes. Which reminds me that I haven't announced it yet. My cousin Frankie lives with me now. Yeah undisclosed reasons but she lives with me. It's kind of weird but cool at the same time. Homemade cookies are awesome. The Sims 2 comes out on Friday. I'm so excited I can't even explain. I feel like the biggest fucking nerd on the face of the planet, but I don't care. Things are slowly getting better with me and Jim. We're not fighting as much as we were a week ago, so I'm thankful for that much. I gave him my necklace that had my crosses on it and told him to carry it everywhere with him, because he needed them more than I did. I also gave them to him because I was holding the necklace in my hand and I was crying because so much shit has gone on. I had been praying and praying for God to give me hope or strength....anything. Yet nothing was happening. I almost threw those damn crosses across the room. I was so fed up, so I told Jim to hold onto them. Maybe he'd have better luck than I would......it seems to have worked because things are much better than they were a few days ago. I saw Tina a couple of weeks ago with her baby. Alexi is so big now. She's six months old, and is the prettiest baby I've ever seen. She has hazel chinky eyes, light brown hair, light skin, and the most beautiful smile. She's such a happy baby too. She let me hold her and play with her without fussing or crying. Tina's sister Cathy lost a lot of weight. She's skinnier than Tina now. I guess she's on this diet where she can eat whatever she wants, but once 4:00 in the afternoon hits, no more eating. I'll have to try it. Seriously, she's lost so much weight it's amazing. "Chingaling"... Sorry I'm listening to Houston and his song "I Like That" with Chingy and Nate Dogg. Fucking awesome song. It makes me dance all over the damn living room. The other day Frankie and I were driving my dad's F150 and we were BUMPING his stereo. We were dancing to the song in the truck, and all of a sudden this guy Adam from my dad's work pulls up next to us, and waves. He started busting up laughing when he saw me and Frankie acting like nerds. He told my dad, and my dad has decided I can't drive his truck anymore. We shall see..... " Drop ... and let me see ya bring it back up top Damn I love that song. 9:33 a.m. - 2004-09-14 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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