snccharlotte's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I've Found A Reason For Me Lately I've been thinking about my relationship with Jim. For awhile there it felt like things between us were going cold (on my end anyways), and I couldn't figure out why I felt so detached from him. I loved him as always, but for awhile I wasn't feeling very close to him. I couldn't put my finger on why and it was killing me. Of course I didn't tell him any of this, but I figured out why. A couple of nights ago, Jim and I went and laid on my trampoline and stared at the stars and talked for a long time. It felt so good to just lay there and spill all my troubles and sadness to him, and just feel safe because he was holding me in his arms and just listening. We hadn't done that in so long, and afterwards when he left, I got butterflies in my stomach and I felt warm and fuzzy inside. I had felt detached because we hadn't talked in soo long. Not a huge long meaningful conversation anyways. That conversation just made me feel so good, and made me realize all over again how much I really love him. I love him so much it hurts inside. When we're apart I feel like a part of me has been ripped out of me, and only returns when he does. He's everything to me. I think without him there to hold me and love me, a huge part of me would die. He's my world. He's my reason 9:00 p.m. - 2004-07-18 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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