snccharlotte's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- We Keep It Rockin...in California Today was an awesome day. Erin came and hung out with me and my friends today. We went out to eat at El Tio Pepe's, and sang the Fanta song. Afterwards we went to the mall. Alex tried on a floofy skirt, and Erin got a picture of it. I pushed Joey around in a Mervyn's cart and he acted like a retard. That was great. We went searching for man thongs, went pee a thousand times, and just had a good old time. Sex and the City rocks. I have converted Erin. Derek, you're next buddy. Yet, the best thing that happened to me today happened at work. Clarissa, Agnes, Brian, Valerie, Talleh, and a few others showed up to say hello. I was talking to them for awhile before I ended my break. When I went back to work I realized something very important. I didn't feel a connection with them. It wasn't there; the old feeling. I could still talk to them like normal, but I didn't get that cozy happy feeling I used to get with them.....it was just gone. I know that sounds sad but I've distanced myself so much from all of them that I can' feel the same way anymore. The only person I still felt a connection with was Clarissa, but we've been friends for years. But everyone else, it just wasn't there. I realized that I have new friends now, and I lead an entirely different life than I did a year ago. I could talk to Clarissa and Valerie the same, but everyone else was like....talking to strangers. It was weird, yet it felt good at the same time. I realized that I had grown as a person and changed for the better since last summer, and it made me really happy to know that I was okay with not being so close to them. Somehow, I felt stronger. I was so happy after that break. Not because I saw my old friends, but because I saw them and it didn't really affect me either way. It was a real accomplishment for me to move past the warm fuzzy feelings of the group. I still care about my friends, but it's just nice to know that I'm not going to have a nervous breakdown over everything now. Yay, go me! Love, Amber P.S. Erin, you're fun! 10:53 p.m. - 2004-06-24 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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