snccharlotte's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Slut! Slut! Slut! Last night was one of the most humiliating nights I have ever had in my life. No exaggerations. Jim and I went next door to his aunt Martha's house so he could get some food to take to work today. Martha cornered us in the kitchen and basically went off. She said that she had found out we were having sex in his room, and how it was disrespectful of us to do that in his grandfather's house. Supposedly Salina (Jim's sister) had gone into his room for some reason, and had seen a condom wrapper on the floor. Just to spite him, she went and told her aunt. So now Martha hates me, as I'm sure most of the rest of his family does too. His mom doesn't hate me, but she's not willing to help out Jim either. I feel so completely guilty. This whole thing is my fault. I'm always the one who initiates things like that, and now he's getting into trouble with his family over it. We came to a mutual agreement not to have sex anymore until we have a place of our own. That way everything that is our buisness, stays our buisness. I feel like the biggest slut in the world now. The worst thing is, I really don't feel like I should have to. I'm not a slut for having sex with my boyfriend whom I love more than anyone on this earth. It's just because I know I've offended his family, and that is really getting to me. I'm so embarassed and ashamed that I don't even want to go back to his house. I'm just so disgusted with myself right now. How could I have been so fucking inconsiderate? Fuck that. I'd hate me too. 7:52 a.m. - 2004-02-02 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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